Tardy me in all things at the moment (Even replying to comments to my posts which seem to only occur when I can think a little at the end of the week), and guess what, I got a stress rash all over my chest. Wonderful sight as I slipped into a hot bath thinking I'd read over some of Earnest's observations on Bicycle Racing, when I looked down, stubbed the cigarette I was chugging on and called out in a panic to Sabine. Yes, a stress rash for now, unless it turns out to be something more serious but this weekend I really did slump in a pool of exhaustion and found myself with ex-partner and son suddenly turning up and spending a few nights at my place due to an uprooting of her current living arrangements.
This was topped with the steep financial climb to do my PHD in the UK, funnily enough living expenses where I want to go are not much more then what you end up paying here. There is so much to organise and what mind space I do have is devoted to daily grinds, nightly naps, and weekend wondering at where the weekend went. I am always in awe of people who are able to simply "get things done", it seems to me like a flaunting grace that ever so deftly manoeuvres itself around life's administrative congestion.
It's not like any steady progress is being made in my mind just rough sketches of what I want to do surrounded by a cluster of goals matched against outcomes, I have had to cull some of my directive idealism and can it up for a later, much later date. Amazing how one can think to do these kind of things especially when it is intrinsically within oneself. One cautiously backs away from life, it suddenly encroaches, one extends towards life, it suddenly retreats. That's really Tantalus summed up to a tea isn't it, and also not because he never got any tea did he?
Monday, June 30, 2008
Tardy Me
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4 said knowingly:
Yes, there was a faint fug of damp electricity coming from you last night, and I thought, oh dear, he's momentarily fused.
I almost woke you last night to enjoy a very dramatic moment I thought you would appreciate. The rain hit so violently in every conceivable direction until I thought the window may smash.
xx
Sabine,
I would have enjoyed that blast of rain, it is a pity such events are so infrequent nowdays, a constant downpour over four or five days would do me good. xoxo Rups
Have you decided whereabouts in the UK you are headed as of yet? Not everywhere is expensive you know...
Mutley,
Yes, not everywhere is, it is a misconception that annoyingly is perpetrated by those who only travel to London etc. We've decided somewhere slightly more out of the way but the UK at least if anything. There's an organisation that lines up rent by application and I'm looking to set something up before leaving, the rental price of most places I researched are only about a hundred bucks more then what I pay now and some places have three bedrooms where I have only two.
xo Rups
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